İ`m still looking for alternatives to blogcounter.de. its list of the most visited blogs, pseudo-ironically called “schwanzvergleich” is annoying. at the moment İ`m testing sitemeter.com, but it doesn`t work yet. so - any suggestions?

.. can be hard. hardcore. you need to be loud, if you want to be heard. you can, but you also need to present yourself, evryday if you can manage to go out of your cocoon. you definitly experience more, than you can react on.

so İ choosed amd İ know why. there is possibility to exist as an human being, if you manage, just to the next stranger in the street. - oh, İ got pathetic, sorry, İ`m in the mood to.

İ just told a friend, İ don`t want to see him right now and probably not the next weeks, or however, not in the state he is now. İt makes me sad.

As İ know, this all is not saying to much to you and İ can`t be more concrete here im public, but talking aboyt a public issue is not the thing İ want to do now, you get just a pic:

so.

@jelena.: İ still like this version more

wrong typos are giving the best hits for google. my post “syrania” about the movie syriana was found by 55 visitors up to now. So it seems İ`m not the only one who made this mistake. even spiegel.de wrote it like this. anyway, its a good movie.

… İ don`t remember the details, just evrybody was speaking turkish, all the people İ know from germany. i got angry, because İ had to learn hard to be able to talk a little bit, but they just did, without any problems.

who organized the world like this, that life is likely to be work. my job is mostly to communicate with drunken people. as disite of sleeping and eating there is not much more else, i will write once more about this.

talk nr. 1

it was new years eve. so i had to expect even more drunken crowd. one talk was oustanding. he told me about this: sorry if i don`t greet you on the street, but you a gay and nonody should know, that i know you. probably you don`t like me because of that, but it`s not my fault, it`s turkish society.

- arschloch, fucking “alternative” “underground” arschloch. first of all thanks for identifying my sexual orientation, so i don`t have to do by my own, but boş ver, İ can live with that. but blaming society for your homophobia and expecting me to accept this is to much. go home and don`t bother me - please.

talk nr. 2

Oh it`s so interesting, a german law graduate working in this place. I`m so ordanary, you have all opportunities and choosed this place. it`s such a nice place >remark: it was 5 o`clock in the morning and it was really anything but nice for me at the moment and he was the last customer, who made me to stay longer< İ think you found your place, getting out of it all.

- İ think İ was never so much in all that shit, the brutality of working society. show me the opportunitıes which are better. İ would prefer to sleep or make party at this time - really.

ok. enough for now, it will be better soon, some days off and İ can see it more relaxed. maybe İ can do things like taking care of my mail contact or producing some new fotos or just having a glas of wine with some friends.

looking forward to these

vera

İ didn`t publishe anything for some while. The reason is: lola11 died. lola11 was my fedora system. it was very stressed by the crappy power supply. so it decided not to boot anymore. This issue is annoying me for weeks now, but Knoppix is saving me. This tiny little linux-live-cd, which is really cude. İt did not complaign abut my hardware in any way. it is just booting and opening my door to the online world. but anyway, İ`m still not able to save any data.

İ still try to install an BSD. my first attamp was Freebsd, but it didn`t like my networkcard at all und even with a “new” one - İ think it is about 5 year old - the installer wasn`t able to get a stable ftp connection. But why should İ bore you with this stuff.

Uff. So İ should tell you about the last few weeks? Yes, it was full of diskussions. Most of the time İ spent in this scene İ would like to call it alternative yuppie. İ`m playing the working class. The weekends. Those about hundred peaople coming evry friday/sturday night to spent the many they earned during the weeks by their career mostly in some “creative” job, art, media, advertising. Drinking, music and smalltalk - and living a strange idea of sexual freedom. At leat it`s quite less hetero dominated than at most places. But there is hardly any talk about sexism, just an idea of evrything goes, which is seen as the negation of morality. No talk about who is bearing the conflicts, no questioning of power in Partiarchy. Hardly any, to be accurate. the revoluton is being prepared.

Fight sexism.

An other issue. A new blog appeared and is linking me - / deutschlaender is born and talking about almancı and germany. As İ promised him, İ`ll put him on my blogroll now.

nore is coming soon

vera

the most intersting information you can find in the blogcounter user stats is the sechtion browser/OS. 44.1 % of my readers is using linux, followed by Win XP (33.3) and Mac OS X (8.3). So it seems, that the blogsphere is a gang of nerds, as i consider, this is not representative for internetusers at all. About 5 % is able to hide their OS, or is using one, which isn`t known, maybe BSD. Most of them are using Konquerer 3.4.

One was using mozilla 1.8, which is not yet available as stable version, as far as İ know, one İE 5.01, which should be some years old. İ`m thinking about uplaoding one of these Pics, which is troubling not up to date İE users, just for fun. maybe the oldest browser, which visited me, was NS 3.01. But must are using mozilla 1.7, 66 % of the users. so Mozilla really seems to have reached the goal to replace İE (5.4%) as the one and only standard browser.