there have been complaints, I didn’t write any more. well, my life changed. and yet I don’t really know, what to think about. usually i get up at 7:30 in the morning to head for my course, I’m not decided, wether i’d like to join the small talk there or I’d rather feel like staying by myself. I feel like not being in my world there, even if i guess, others have more to tell, than they show at the surface of being young urban professional.
Ok, this is just 3 hours of my day, but its horrible regular. Beside that, I miss Istanbul, the lively streets, the feelings of not evrything is secured up. but yet, all these thoughts seem to be stereotypes. I will need some time to evaluate this issue a little bit more.

i started my internship. that means i hadto sit three hours ith 180 others. I didn’t feellike talkingto anyone. The president of the court had a speech, quite symptomatic for the german way of dealing with its history. She spoke much about the “dark sides” ofthe history, but nothing,which would question the legal system. All was about the “Volksgerichtshof” which was extraordinary and was not working like a normal court. What about the ordanary courts? didn’t they also execute NS law? Shouldn’t we speak about maybe how the nuernberg race laws influenced family law, how judges where doingthis job, in patterns of the `rule of law`. shouldn’t we ask the question, way the rule of law is seen as something in contradiction to NS. But to speakabout ONE court, which was extraordinary and not acting in the patterns of process, is easier and demands less self-reflection.
beside that i feel fine in berlin, my new flat (with an open wireless lan available) and are expecting a time with not too much work and oportunuties for good party. Thanks for the comment, my dear friends in istanbul, i miss you, too.