There is a Jewish Museum of Turkey -miş, -miş -miş … metroblog:istanbul is montioning. İ passed 100.000 times without recognizing. I just red the short essay about Jewish history in Turkey, espacially the part about WWII and Emmigration. I herd about, that some Turks are really proud of the deal, getting braindrain for asylum. I have just one question. Whats the history of those jews, who didn`t fit in the (positive?) antisemitic image of the hyper-intellegent Jew.

there is much discussion about israels right of selfdefence, the war, antisemitism and so on. İ made contributions here, and unfortunatly here, dispite the fact, that there is no base to discuss with somebody who just ignore antisemitism. İ wan`t leave the spot a little bit and have a look, what european countries are doing.

10.000`s of european citizen were living in lebanon. İt seems anyone of them wanted to leave. So european gouvernments ornganized ships to evacuate them. But of course not only europeans wanted to leave. masses of refugees of war where in the line. so people where separated in those, who have the right passport, and those who have not. İ wonder, if there was war here, would İ leave behind my friends ? Would İ go to the german embassy, waving my eagle-passport and they: “bring me out here!” - knowing, that all the people i share my evrydays` life problems can`t?

And despite İsreals need of selfdefence, there is the view on the individual. can it be made reliable for actions of hezbollah? And if so, why the hell can those, who choosed to live there, having a passport, which makes it possible to choose where to live, aren`t responsible. İ was surprized by the number of europeans living in lebanon. it means, that there are strong economical connections between lebanon and europe. İt doesn`t seem, that this had a positive influence to lebanons politics toward hezbollah. damn, İ think, those are at least as responsible as any lebaneese living there, but they can just leave to the save good old europe and their evacuation is organized by their gouvernment, as the same gouvernment is refusing to take any refugees of war.

at the same time, these gouvernments are reminding İsrael on the pricipals of humanity. what a false game.

it seems to be history. There was a problem showing the content of the blog. about 80 requests within one minute might might be correlating to this. the problem is strange, because the eroor was dependend from the browser ayou used and where you requısred from. at least it semmed like this.

die admins don`t tell a word what happened and how they fixed. hm, anyway. its working. but İ would like to know.

Some time ago İ decided to epilate my brows. İ don`t know exactly why, maybe because so many people do, nearly evryone, excepapt most men. and i had really big monobrow. a friend of mine was convinced that`s why i was so often aressted in germany, because monobrows is a classical sign for an “criminal personality” ın biologistic crime studies, which is still teached to police. but that was not my reason to try to epilate them.
but i had no idea how to do, as my socialisation didn`t include such stuff. so İ checked the web, found for example this. İt all sounded to complicated to me.
ok, fortunatly i`m living in turkey, where there`s a professional solution for any problem. so i don`t have to take care about my beauty problems for myself, İ can just go to the berber as İ do regulary to let me shave. so about one week ago İ just told the berber, that İ don`t like my monobrow and he solved the problem like this:
he took an thread and twirled it, so he had three ends, one to hold in his teeth, two for his hands. so he could twirl the thread over my face, catching the hairs and pull it out like this. thats fast and painfull. within to minutes all the brow over the nose and evrything, which was too much was gone. İ was convinced.
so far. yesterday i went to the berber again, to let me shave. He started to epilate, but this time not only the brows, but also half of my face. it was really painfull. full of trust in my berber İ tried to be brave. but a tear started to roll over my face. the berber gave me a tissue and then started to tell me the story of his life. he told me about a shell splinter, stucking in his kidney. in bagdad, he told. İ shouldn`t cry about some hair.
anyway İ survived, not really sure, wether this story is a reason to stand pain. but İ was quite confused. what he told is something, İ knew as a classical image shown in news tv to express the horror of war. it`s nothing what İ filed to real live.
and on the other hand, the experience was touching my ambivalent relation to pain, anyway, the pain, you know it is for the moment only.

the protocol of my offline day is here.

1. İ bought a new table. a street sellers` table. its minimalist design is really superb.

2. some days ago İ cut my finger. not deep, more like an abrasion. but it was bleeding and it needed to be desinfected and dressed. So İ went to a pharmacy, which wanted to send me to a doctor. But that was nonsense, it was just a little wound. so İ went to the next - same story. ok, İ tried to go to the sağlık ocağı, a kind of small hospital for ambulant care. it was closed. so i went back to the pharmacy and got a little bit angry, because they made a problem of kind of nothing. an other customer helped me, stating that maybe i don`t have the money and time to travel by taxi to somewhere, and i got my iodine and some dressing stuff.

3. the next visitor is getting the surprize. So İ will have to work for it today …

İ spent about two days, rying to kompile a new kernel for my NetBSD. İ just wanted to install my old harddisk as a encrypted filesystem and so İ had to comment in one line,

pseudo-device cgd 4 # cryptographic disk devices

but just because İ once had to compile the kernel, İ wanted to make it as small as possible. the first try was trial and error, it worked to boot, but the x didn`t start. the next try -MYKERNEL2- worked, as İ just commented in the line for encryption, but was big.
the next try was to comment out very carefully -MYKERNEL3-, but still didn`t work. the same problem, X didn`t start.

Fatal server error:
Caught signal 11. Server aborting

so, as İ don`t find the problem, İ decided to publish all the stuff. maybe someone can give me a hint, maybe someone is just curious, hoe all this stuff looks like. İ got headache by all this jhjk* at hjhj? dev ? ? .

so these istv the stuff

MYKERNEL2 - the config of the working kernel, its dmesg-output, and the Xlog
MYKERNEL3 - the config of the buggy kernel, its dmesg-output, and its Xlog with the fatal error.