who organized the world like this, that life is likely to be work. my job is mostly to communicate with drunken people. as disite of sleeping and eating there is not much more else, i will write once more about this.

talk nr. 1

it was new years eve. so i had to expect even more drunken crowd. one talk was oustanding. he told me about this: sorry if i don`t greet you on the street, but you a gay and nonody should know, that i know you. probably you don`t like me because of that, but it`s not my fault, it`s turkish society.

- arschloch, fucking “alternative” “underground” arschloch. first of all thanks for identifying my sexual orientation, so i don`t have to do by my own, but boş ver, İ can live with that. but blaming society for your homophobia and expecting me to accept this is to much. go home and don`t bother me - please.

talk nr. 2

Oh it`s so interesting, a german law graduate working in this place. I`m so ordanary, you have all opportunities and choosed this place. it`s such a nice place >remark: it was 5 o`clock in the morning and it was really anything but nice for me at the moment and he was the last customer, who made me to stay longer< İ think you found your place, getting out of it all.

- İ think İ was never so much in all that shit, the brutality of working society. show me the opportunitıes which are better. İ would prefer to sleep or make party at this time - really.

ok. enough for now, it will be better soon, some days off and İ can see it more relaxed. maybe İ can do things like taking care of my mail contact or producing some new fotos or just having a glas of wine with some friends.

looking forward to these

vera